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Duration of today’s sit: 60 minutes

Things got very challenging for me early last week. My notion of self became acutely painful. And I “gave up” on my morning sits, even going so far as to hide that fact from my accountability partner. When I get in that sad and hopeless mindset, it’s extremely hard to see the value in sitting. That mindset is a place of despair where no action seems meaningful.

The main motivator for sitting today was the completion of the 100 days. The idea of not sitting on Day 100 was more painful than the thought of sitting.

My plan is to review these notes from the 100 Days over the next week and summarize what I’ve learned, and also choose how I want to continue this practice. I am clear that the practice of sitting is valuable and meaningful to me. This past week showed me that I don’t get anything valuable or meaningful out of not sitting.

One insight I had during today’s sit: There seem to be three dimensions of life experience. There’s the sensory dimension (what I experience through my five senses), the representational dimension (how I represent life to myself in words, images, and other symbols), and the observational dimension (how aware I am of these three dimensions). At any given moment, one of these dimensions will be a person’s primary focus.

For me, it tends to be the representational dimension. And the habits there tend to be self-critical. I see sitting meditation as an opportunity to focus more intentionally on the other two dimensions.

Finally, here’s the graph showing my progress over the course of the 100 days (for a total of 42 hours, 3 minutes of sitting meditation):

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