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Duration of today’s sit: 30 minutes

Today I began a habit of calling a friend before 6:30 AM on his drive into work to create some accountability for myself to sit early in the morning. And it felt like I took my commitment to a much deeper level.

The sit itself was fruitful. I used the Mahamudra approach of grounding my awareness in the relaxed body when my mind was agitated, and then intensifying my mindfulness when my mind was dull. It worked very well, though I did swing from agitated to dull and back quite a few times.

It felt like I was bringing a higher level of intelligence to the practice with that degree of mindfulness.

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Duration of today’s sit: 20 minutes

Very scattered mind with lots of activity to distract me, yet I sat relatively peacefully in the eye of the storm. I’m enjoying my sits, even when my mind is not quiet. All about the attitude.

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Duration of today’s sit: 20 minutes

The combination of light-hearted, intelligent equanimity has really shifted my attitude about my sits. Today’s sit was a mixed experience, but most of the time I felt good about it. I felt that even when my concentration strayed, I was learning something and having a valuable experience.

Trust is a big part of that too. When I trust that no matter what happens I will be served by it, then I enjoy the sit.

This shift feels significant.

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Duration of today’s sit: 20 minutes

Before my sit today, I reviewed the “factors which potentiate concentration training” in my notes from the meditation retreat. I focused on these: intelligence, light-heartedness, and equanimity. With a smile on my face, I sat and concentrated.

My degree of staying was quite continuous, and my level of discernment was extremely high. This felt like the most concentrated I’ve been in a while, intense but relaxed at the same time.

The sit was like a microcosm of my every day experience of life. In just twenty minutes I observed anxiety, racing thoughts, complete concentration, creative thinking, peace, appreciation, attachment, non-attachment, and more.

I enjoyed the late afternoon sun casting shadows across the room. I think morning sits will be good for my consistency, but late afternoon could be a great time for a second sit on any given day.

Reviewing my notes and sitting with those factors in mind was a big help today. I will continue to do that for the remainder of the week at least.

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Duration of today’s sit: 20 minutes

Racing mind, racing mind. Lots of anxiety, some frustration and doubt.

One victory was sitting before turning on my computer. I also reviewed my notes from the meditation retreat upon completing my sit this morning.

I think I’m a little lost. I sit, I try to concentrate, but I’m not bringing much intelligence to the experience. The notes helped remind me of the different aspects of concentration that I could be learning about and exploring each time I sit.

For the duration of this week and next, I intend to review the notes before I sit to help me approach the experience more intelligently.

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