First, let me clean something up: Today was supposed to be the first day of Stage 3 in these 100 Days of Peace in Relationships. My intention was to have authentic interactions with 5 new people a day, and have at least one of those end with me asking for a woman’s phone number. I will not begin that today (and I did not follow through on my plans for Stage 2 either), and I’m not sure when or if I will take that on in these 100 Days.
What I’ve been focusing on this week is my relationship to money. Last night I attended a teleclass by Financial Alchemist, Morgana Rae. She taught us to create a relationship with money akin to a relationship with a lover, and to trust our intuition as to what that lover needs from us.
As I went to sleep last night, I directed my mind to teach me something about my relationship to money. And one of the dreams I remember having was quite revealing. I was hiding from some of my clients, not playfully but fearfully. I was afraid that they would find me.
I’m not totally sure what that means, but I know it’s meaningful and related to my relationship to money. It may be a fear of my greatness in the way that Maryanne Williamson describes in her quote:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most.”
I intend to explore this question even more deeply.
