I’m enjoying the practice I started on Day 68 (that is, holding the perspective that nothing is real but what I can perceive through my five senses).
Today I will continue that practice, this time with a mantra:
“What is in my presence, and what is in my head?”
This question helps me distinguish how much of my reality is coming from the present and how much is being created by my mind from the past or future.
(One could argue scientifically and philosophically that it’s all in my head, even my sensory experience. But that would be focusing too much on the words I’m using to describe this practice, and not on the experience of the practice itself.)
I’m driving to Washington, DC for the day with a friend. He’s the kind of person who’s into this stuff, so it might be fun to enroll him in this practice, too.
Clearing Report (see Day 66 for an explanation)
Meditation: 6:30 AM
Conscious eating: Continues to be challenging, but I’m starting to accept the challenge as growing pains, the natural experience of doing something differently.
Authenticity: For most of the day, my authenticity felt very high (8, almost 9). There was one point when I stumbled. After the gig last night, a few of us went to a diner. I really liked Sara (the woman who performed), and I wanted her to like me, so I felt myself start to turn on The Curtis Show. But I observed myself doing it almost immediately, and I was able to turn it off. Guess what? She liked Authentic Curtis just fine.
In bed: 3:45 AM (Planned due to my trip to Virginia)